Oh yay, it's finally Friday again. & Term 1 is ending. Waaay too soon >< tmr's the last day of Feb alr ><
Anw! Things've been happening this week, as usual. A fun/troubling week. I can't say that things've been going really smooth, but I guess that's what Life's all about. Going through the rough patches & becoming better and stronger. Hahah :)
Heidi told me that Zoey told Caryl to not put Xuan & I together for duties anymore. I don't get it, why does she have to interfere so much? I know she's being protective of me, but please, Xuan doesn't even LIKE me -.- what's the big deal about us doing duties together. & Caryl actually said YES. Omg, I think that's even harder to believe -.- & Heidi was telling me that I ignored Zoey during assembly cus I was smiling at Xuan -.-, or so she thinks. & Heidi can tell her that maybe I just happened to look at her while thinking of some other stuff, but no, Zoey insists that Xuan was smiling at me too -.- what the hell la. I mean like, seriously, what the hell. I told Sapph & she was like "Huh I'm your sis & I don't even care." -.- for a moment, I was thinking if Zoey was jealous of Xuan, but it didn't seem possible, so I dropped that idea. But omg la, can you believe it? My jaws literally dropped when I heard that from Heidi this afternoon. Ner was nice enough to blast her music, so yep, only Heidi, Zoey, Sapph & I know :D excluding the rest of the Exco.
SO TODAY. I MADE TIME FOR HER. & I neglected Lihmaan. Ahhhh~ what the hell la. Everything isn't working out. When I'm with Lihmaan, Zoey complains that I'm not spending enough time with her. When I'm with Zoey, I feel apologetic towards Lihmaan, cus I haven't talked to her in like, this entire week, face-to-face. Then she wanted to talk to me today, but I told Zoey to come help me with Lit, so she just sat down & uh, sat. Until we had to leave the school. Then Lihmaan left at like 7plus :( damn sad la. I felt so bad. Everything just doesn't work out. & it's so, complicated. & yknow what, only I'm involved. Not only that, I have Kerrui, Shirlyn, Shirlene. Sometimes more people. & I have to sms everyone. Ugh, & she tells Heidi that I have the time to sms people but not her. Or rather, my replies to her aren't as long as to others. What the heck la. Seriously. I don't know what I'm supposed to do alr. I can't find a perfect solution where everyone's happy. Neither can I find a solution whereby everyone'll be happy except for me [I really won't mind], so what am I supposed to do -.-!
& Denise, you're really not making it ANY better. I know & I appreciate, but I'm really sorry to say that you're not making things better & you're making things worse. Just seeing your face now makes me want to punch a wall or kick a table cus I'm seriously so damn annoyed with what you're doing right now. You try to make everything better by um, OFFERING ME HUGS which I seriously DON'T NEED or um, sending me smses which you think affect me alot but don't. Cus honestly, I won't do anything for you. If you think I'll sleep early cus you ask me to, you're wrong. If you tell me to go home early & I do, it's not cus of you as well. It just means that someone else told me to do the same thing as you, & I'm doing it for that someone, NOT YOU.
OKAY. I'm trying my best, not to show my antipathy / aversion for her. I hope she hasn't noticed it yet, so that I'll have time to quickly revert things to how they were. AHHH~ I don't have enough time T.T this sucks. Life just sucks. UGH!
There's alot of things going on. Which I don't even know what. & my grades for Term 1 isn't even up to standard
AHHHHH. I hate my current life. Thank god, I have all my wonderful besties around me :) who's giving me the strength to go on. Thanks guys, y'all rock ttm :)
Kay, I'm going to. Sleep. Soon. A very tiring day. Lol. Waking up early to do work tmr. I hope I can. Maybe wake up naturally. Hahah :D & not going out anymore!! Yay :) I NEED TO CHIONG SS. I'M SO NOT SIGNING INTO MSN TMR. Switch off phone. Confirm can do alot :) kay. Jiayou everyone :)
Ohwell. No work done at all tonight. Sucks ttm. Maybe get up latest by 9 tmr. Ahhh~ Ahgirl's doing so much la >< & I'm like wasting my time here. -.-
Kkay, posting. BYE <3